I don’t know how I put up with the pain for that long, I guess I felt like I had no choice but to just keep going. I wasn’t fond of the alternative, but it turns out that he is happier for it. Getting a full tummy..finally!

I’m glad I made it for as long as I did, and if we lived in a perfect world he would have of course been breastfed for much longer. But it’s not and decisions had to be made to do what’s best for him.

People could argue I could have tried again and done many other things before offering formula (but was there ever going to be a solution to the pulling off? I guess we will never know). I’m sure that others would have made suggestions about donor milk, but in all honesty, aren’t there so many more much younger babies that need this? Preston is 5 months, will start solids soon, and formula will gradually become less and less as the months go on. He will eventually transition to other milk (just like I did for Addison, his was just a transition from breast milk instead).

Both our boys are two of the most loved children in this world, so what he eats really isn’t all that important in the grand scheme of things. All we want is for him to be happy and healthy like any other parent.

Love you too and am so thankful for your support, you know this hasn’t been easy by any means and it’s nice to know that I always have people in my life that are there for us xo.